I'm having a harder than normal time focusing. I can't bring my thoughts in to order or dedicate my energy on the things that are important to me for longer than short bursts of activity.
This is not a Big Long Term problem, this is a small, right now problem. I can solve this problem with focus and discipline, or with a vacation, or with the support of my coconspirators.
I'm restless. That's really all there is to it. I'm not sleeping well, and I'm worried about the future (not my future, which is well in hand at the moment, but *our* future.)
When I ran Analog Revolution, we did a weekly meeting of our writers and artists.
I used that time to make an agenda of our current projects, to delegate, to plan, prioritize, brainstorm.
A lot of it was just Ryan and I shouting at one another in half sentence, too excitedly.
We used this time to manufacture things, to plan for the future, to write, to record, to listen to music, to eat pizza and be a community with one another.
At the very least, I know that I need collaborators, coconspirators.
People that I am responsible to, people who are helping move the projects along, people who's projects I can help move along. A network of mutual support.
@ajroach42 I am here for pragmatic moral support and let's say "campaign orientation" where I can help amp you up about how your work plays into the larger efforts we're all making, but can also say I'm not here for putting in the hours on any of your projects they're all just outside my skillset <3
@ajroach42 also you should try growing sprouts a steady diet of fresh greens probably can't hurt a fall mood eh?
(I've been getting really consistently good batches growing so am on a big "everyone should do this thing i'm enjoying!" binge right now.)
@ajroach42 I'm much worse at computers than my posts would have you believe! :D
@ajroach42 my creative labor is selfishly all mine :( it's like the thing i'm most selfish about probably
But, I appreciate you highlighting that because I always forget how fucking prolific you are with those projects
@emsenn :-D I make a lot of things, yeah. and I'm just at a weird crossroads where many of my projects are in the boring slog stage, and very few of them are in the New Fun stage or the Almost Finished Fun stage.
There's just a lot of nose down doing work stuff, and when I look at my todo list I get a little overwhelmed.
@ajroach42 y'know I kinda stumbled into it but I'm stumbling into a kinda seasonal approach to projects. Fall seems to be for cleaning up my recordkeeping and website and doing stuff related to that, winter is for graphic, audio, and music production, and spring is for focusing on one big project, like my MUD engine or my fantasy world. And the summer is for the unending slog of building maintenance; my dayjob.
I know you can't do the same but my point was to say 1/n lol
@ajroach42 that for a while now I've just not touched certain projects for MONTHS and it's been totally fine so if I were you I'd say maybe get myopic about your todo list and yea, keep your nose down, do what needs to be done, and don't worry about how you're progressing through the liist as a whole. <3
@ajroach42 sorry my toot was really in reply to what you said to emsenn here about "writing, recording, editing" https://retro.social/@ajroach42/102901405273253684
@ajroach42 i used to be a writing consultant (academic writing tutor) in school, I'm a few years rusty now and didn't have much experience with creative writing but if you can tell me
"here is my writing, here are the concerns I'm having with it right now" or "here are some of the things I'm trying to make sure are going on with the writing" I can provide workshop-style feedback
you might have other folks in your circle that are better equipped than me for your needs but i'm here if you want
hey this offer goes out to other people too. (boosts welcome)
but also, I highly recommend your writing center if your school has one
@alcinnz Okay, this took longer to put together than I expected.
Here's a rough list of all my current projects, their status, and their next actions:
... This is too long to send as microblog posts. I'm going to post it on my website and share a link with you. Give me a second.