I'm having a harder than normal time focusing. I can't bring my thoughts in to order or dedicate my energy on the things that are important to me for longer than short bursts of activity.
This is not a Big Long Term problem, this is a small, right now problem. I can solve this problem with focus and discipline, or with a vacation, or with the support of my coconspirators.
I'm restless. That's really all there is to it. I'm not sleeping well, and I'm worried about the future (not my future, which is well in hand at the moment, but *our* future.)
When I ran Analog Revolution, we did a weekly meeting of our writers and artists.
I used that time to make an agenda of our current projects, to delegate, to plan, prioritize, brainstorm.
A lot of it was just Ryan and I shouting at one another in half sentence, too excitedly.
We used this time to manufacture things, to plan for the future, to write, to record, to listen to music, to eat pizza and be a community with one another.
I miss that. It's possible that re-establishing this kind of an on going, regular gathering (physically or digitally!) with a focus on The Work, and The People, with an energy half way between a classroom lecture and a wild party would be valuable in helping me feel less drifting and directionless.
At the very least, I know that I need collaborators, coconspirators.
People that I am responsible to, people who are helping move the projects along, people who's projects I can help move along. A network of mutual support.
@ajroach42 I am here for pragmatic moral support and let's say "campaign orientation" where I can help amp you up about how your work plays into the larger efforts we're all making, but can also say I'm not here for putting in the hours on any of your projects they're all just outside my skillset <3