I'm having a harder than normal time focusing. I can't bring my thoughts in to order or dedicate my energy on the things that are important to me for longer than short bursts of activity.

This is not a Big Long Term problem, this is a small, right now problem. I can solve this problem with focus and discipline, or with a vacation, or with the support of my coconspirators.

I'm restless. That's really all there is to it. I'm not sleeping well, and I'm worried about the future (not my future, which is well in hand at the moment, but *our* future.)

When I ran Analog Revolution, we did a weekly meeting of our writers and artists.

I used that time to make an agenda of our current projects, to delegate, to plan, prioritize, brainstorm.

A lot of it was just Ryan and I shouting at one another in half sentence, too excitedly.

We used this time to manufacture things, to plan for the future, to write, to record, to listen to music, to eat pizza and be a community with one another.

I miss that. It's possible that re-establishing this kind of an on going, regular gathering (physically or digitally!) with a focus on The Work, and The People, with an energy half way between a classroom lecture and a wild party would be valuable in helping me feel less drifting and directionless.

At the very least, I know that I need collaborators, coconspirators.

People that I am responsible to, people who are helping move the projects along, people who's projects I can help move along. A network of mutual support.

@ajroach42 I am here for pragmatic moral support and let's say "campaign orientation" where I can help amp you up about how your work plays into the larger efforts we're all making, but can also say I'm not here for putting in the hours on any of your projects they're all just outside my skillset <3


@emsenn I expect that my projects fall within the scope of your skill set more often than you'd expect, but mostly those would be the projects that fall outside the more important stuff.

I appreciate the moral support, in any case.

@ajroach42 I'm much worse at computers than my posts would have you believe! :D

@emsenn Barely a quarter of what I'm working on is computer centric.

Most of it is writing, recording, editing, etc.

@ajroach42 my creative labor is selfishly all mine :( it's like the thing i'm most selfish about probably

But, I appreciate you highlighting that because I always forget how fucking prolific you are with those projects

@emsenn :-D I make a lot of things, yeah. and I'm just at a weird crossroads where many of my projects are in the boring slog stage, and very few of them are in the New Fun stage or the Almost Finished Fun stage.

There's just a lot of nose down doing work stuff, and when I look at my todo list I get a little overwhelmed.

@ajroach42 y'know I kinda stumbled into it but I'm stumbling into a kinda seasonal approach to projects. Fall seems to be for cleaning up my recordkeeping and website and doing stuff related to that, winter is for graphic, audio, and music production, and spring is for focusing on one big project, like my MUD engine or my fantasy world. And the summer is for the unending slog of building maintenance; my dayjob.

I know you can't do the same but my point was to say 1/n lol

@ajroach42 that for a while now I've just not touched certain projects for MONTHS and it's been totally fine so if I were you I'd say maybe get myopic about your todo list and yea, keep your nose down, do what needs to be done, and don't worry about how you're progressing through the liist as a whole. <3

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